Starting Over

For the past 15 yrs, I thought I knew exactly what I was going to do with my life...I spent energy, time, money in working towards a goal that I thought was what i wanted...This past year I was able to immerse myself in the field I thought I wanted to work in and found out that I do not want to go in that dirction...what do I do now? So many people will be disappointed that I don't want to do this and yet i have to be true to myself...I feel really empty right now, not sure wich dirction to take...I am back at h ome being a full time mother again...it is frutrating in some ways with Sean as he has so much Energy!! but I also feel I really lost touch with who I am deep inside...I spent all these years thinking that once I am dne with school, once I am done and have a job, once I get this, etc etc blah blah....now look, I realize it is not the way I need to go...what now? How can creativity come from such confusion? Maybe I will spend the next couple weeks writing through this...who knows? My spirit is open to the Spirit for direction