Sometimes when I feel stuck it is because I make plans to do things and they don't work out -usually because of something related to family...I have a hard time letting go of things that I want to do...today I was going to help with a senior luncheon with my mom but then Nick is having some problems at school and I got an email from his teacher this morning with concerns about him so now I have to talk to his dad and meet with the teachers...Nick is taking the day off to do some work and we have to go to the library....I am glad in ways that I am not working and am able to tackle these issues head on but I also wish their fathers would be more involved in their lives...two days ago I sent a prayer up to the universe about what I should focus on...give me a sign....give me direction...even if it is a small one...I need to know I am on the right path....sigh...how do I be patient waiting for a reply? this writing is a blah blah blah one since I have so much on my mind and am not even sure where to begin and what to write about...well, I did mediate yesterday. for 2 minutes before being interrupted by Sean jumping on me- I have always heard that animals and small children are attracted to the energy in prayer and meditation....I did write yesterday...on my blog...I did NOT walk yesterday because I was planning on doing it with Chris but we got into an argument right when he got home....so, today is a new day, I will work on what I said I will do....the universe has given me a sign to continue in some small directions...maybe today I will be able to meditate for 3 minutes...maybe I should try walking and meditating...oh the monkey mind....I think way too damn much
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