Stuck

This past weekend, my family and I celebrated my youngest sister's 30th birthday. There are exactly 10 years between my youngest sister and the oldest in our family and so while we celebrated the last of the 30's we are now also celebrating the first of the 40's this year. I turn 38 yrs old. I am looking at this with an eye of quiet bemusement as I ponder what it means to enter into this middle age of my life...I hope turning 40 will not be as traumatic as turning 30 was...at that time I was newly divorced for the second time, with 3 small kids...it was very tough but I started to go back to school....it was a good thing...now I haven't finished my Bachelor's degree yet...I am stuck in my senior year because I am now not sure what direction I want to spend the last 20 years of my life....my 3 older kids are entering the tweens and teens, I still have a 3 yr old who demands constant attention but life is changing slowly....so, now I begin to enter a new phase...what to do? I have so much I want to look at in regards to what to do my brain is full and it is hard to look at just one thing...I realize one thing I need to do is work on losing some weight...I am not obese but am chunky in the sense that i could lose about 20 pounds...I have started to get some grey hairs...I am proud of them...not to many wrinkles around my eyes..I look more tired than anything...so, now, the question again...where to begin? where do I start to look at myself, my life and move forward into this new phase? How and what does it mean to grow old gracefully? I need to set some goals to begin to get unstuck...so here are my goals for this week- 1.write for 20 minutes a day. I need to declutter my mind and writing has always been a way to do this. 2. Walk for at least 20 minutes a day. 3. meditate for 10 minutes day..just a little at a time. t To clear my head. 4. Practice breathing. 5 Try not to figure it all out at once. Let the questions rest for awhile.